Sweet little note #18

Just came back from Curtin Spring Feast. Hell lots of ppl, but still manage to get some food. Did get to meet tiffany, peiee and peiwan, but i lost mel's no, so i cant contact her! Goshhhh! Btw, it was fine there. Same old stuffy air that makes my hair stinks. Plus, the house for romance guy! Cute!! After that, ei-jean send wl and me home. Well, through ei-jean, got the 'dai go' sung by janice. Shit, now addicted to that song. Like i say, emo emo!! hahahaha. btw, thanks for sending me home, jean!! hugs*

Maybe exams are coming, tend to feel down v easily. I tend to spend more time at home now, not only studying, but reflecting too. Im starting to feel friendless. Not that no friends, but just nt the usual v comfortable gang that i have in taylors. Everyone's in a diff course, diff timetable, diff circle of friends now. Maybe i should just broaden my circle too. My life starts to suck now, i feel.

I dont know. Its also officially time for me to slim down. Well, i have to have determination. Dad and mum will always say, you're fat, must slim down ready. But when i eat less, they make noise, say why dont i eat more. haha, what do they want me to do? Same for aunty uncle, if i eat less, they will start asking questions & start to guess what am i up to now. Well, i just want to look better. I always think that im fine. But now, not anymore. Its really time. Maybe for this week, i'll say this, the next week, im back to my oldself. GOSH, I NEED SERIOUS HELP!

Thinking of delaying trip back home too. But let me think over again.

This post aint sweet and nice. I know. I just need to whine & rant.

Things nt going well too. Its almost a month. Thanks. :(

Time for rest, Goodnight.

Love,
Bernie